Crossroads part 2

I hate suprises. Especially when the surprise isn't a good one. There has been a lot of speculation at my place of employment about the fate of the company. The company cut their staff in half and we haven't had a raise in two years. The President or the Director of Operations hasn't said anything but the way everyone is acting, we all know that "something" is getting ready to go down. I hate looking for work. It sucks and it sucks big time. I don't have that much self confidence and when I come to the realization that my job is in jeopardy that self confidence is put to the test. OK---I admit it. I'm a bit lazy when it comes to looking for work. I'm not lazy at work, just looking for it. haha. I feel a bit uneasy looking for work in the field I've been working in because I don't feel I'm up to date on the technology that this field of work partakes in. My current place of employment doesn't exactly have the latest technology. Heck, this place has been in the red for the past two years. We don't even have paper towels in the kitchen let alone the latest and greatest computer software. I want to leave this place on a high note but I would also like to tell these people a thing or two. Not anything mean, but something along the lines of "so...is now a good time to panic?" That's what they would say to us when they would hold a meeting to let us know they laid someone off or that they lost a client. "Don't panic" is what the President told me when the last client left. I thought for sure that within a week or two the ax would fall straight on my head. Now it seems it will be falling on the whole office.

Well, I'm going to bed now and I so can't wait to go to work tomorrow. I'll be easy to find. I work at the place that sits right in "falling axe zone".